Leslie's Lily Pad

What Love Really Means

2011-01-19T22:59:00.000-08:00

Loving the new JJ Heller song, What Love Really Means. Here are some of the lyrics:

Who will love me for me

Not for what I have done or what I will become

Who will love me for me

'Cause nobody has shown me what love

What love really means what love really means

Then he heard a voice somewhere deep inside

And it said “I know you’ve murdered

And I know you’ve lied

And I've watched you suffer all of your life

And now that you’ll listen I’ll tell you that I...

I will love you for you

Not for what you have done or what you will become

I will love you for you

I will give you the love, the love that you never knew

God all around us

2011-01-19T14:26:00.000-08:00

I've been enjoying my friends daily photos, so thought I'd attempt to dive back into my blog and post more regularly. Happy reading!

God is all around us, in us and works thru us. This tow truck, of all things, reminded me this morning on my dreadful commute, that I am not alone, nor do I act alone or re-act alone. What a wonderful God!

I heard this quote on K-Love and hopefully it will inspire you as it has inspired me. “If you don’t live for Jesus, you’ll live for something else. If you live for career and you don’t do well it may punish you all your life and you’ll feel like a failure. If you live for your children and they don’t turn out right you’ll be absolutely in torment because you feel worthless as a person. If Jesus is your center and Lord and you fail Him, He will forgive you. Your career can’t die for your sins. Everybody has to live for something. Whatever that something is becomes lord of your life whether you think of it that way or not. Jesus is the only Lord who if you receive Him will fulfill you completely, and if you fail Him will forgive you eternally.” from The Reason for God, by Tom Keller

A new creation!

2010-01-20T13:17:00.000-08:00

Hope you are enjoying the new blog makeover. I'm almost never happy with stuff for long... I guess that's what I'm thrilled to read the Word, that reminds me that I am a new creation, constantly changing and hopefully improving.

Each day is a new day filled with fresh ideas, new experiences, chances for change, opportunities for growth, challenges to share, and SO much more. I'm so thankful for a clean slate in the Lord, a chance to move forward and let the past be passed.

I think of so many people that I know, and those I just hear about, who are challenged in dealing with so many life-circumstances, and I am thankful that we are only given what we can handle, altho at times our own situations seem so overwhelming.

Thank you Lord for being a firm foundation that I can stand on and know I'll be held safely.

"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." Ephesians 2:10, NLT

Strength and Peace - bring them on!

2010-01-18T13:50:00.000-08:00

I could use some strength and peace at this time Lord. I was feeling quite content lately, then the world got a bit shook up (yes, I feel like I'm in a snowglobe!) :(

Actions of a persone in my life that supposedly love me and have vowed to care for me and my family have disappointed us time and time again.

I'm so tired of my own voice - hint: this is when I need to run to the Lord and hear His voice... it just feels like a hopeless (I first typed hopefully) mission.

But I do know, deep-down that it there is hope for me and my situation. It feels SO huge right now, but I know it pales in comparison to so many others current pictures of their lives.

Thank you Lord for your voice and the friendships of so many others. It all comes together for the good, even if it hurts along the way.

"The Lord gives his people strength. The Lord blesses them with peace." Psalm 29:11, NLT

For the love of money!

2010-01-04T20:52:00.001-08:00

Wow, is it ever easy to just keep spending... Christmas is barely a memory and there are just so many bargains out there... I'm staying HOME as much as possible to avoid the lure of shopping. How are y'all doing?

Then he said to them, “Watch out! Be on your guard against all kinds of greed; a man's life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions.” Luke 12:15

Merry Christmas (belated)

2009-12-27T20:06:00.000-08:00

I took a risk and gave my coworkers a very God-centered gift... some I knew would be receptive and others, I wasn't quite sure...but prayed and gave them out, asking them to open on Christmas, hoping some quiet time to reflect might help them be more receptive or at least not so pissed :) LOL... Here is the note that my out-of-the-office boss sent me :)

"Leslie thank you for your kind gift. Now maybe I know how you get through all that is thrown at you. Keep it up and I wish you all the best. Take care and thanks again. ~Larry"

I'm SO glad that I stepped out, even in my shy-way, and helped open a door for them.

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven." Matthew 5:15-16 NIV

Unique Creations

2009-12-26T21:07:00.001-08:00

We are each as unique as snowflakes, yet God knows every hair on our heads :) How amazing is that?!?!!? I hope that everyone took time this holiday season to thank God for all He has given us: health, family, friends, etc. IF you haven't, please do so now. Life is just too short and there never seems to be enough time to thank Him. Blessings for 2010 and beyond.

"But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows." Luke 12:7 (KJ)

It all comes down to this!

2009-09-01T18:29:00.000-07:00

We're all fallen from God's grace. Jesus took the pain for everyone. We can be saved and redeemed by His shed blood. We choose to accept the gift of salvation. We are wiped clean of our sin. He took our punishment so that we could live life to the fullest, not just life life, but live life abundantly. Are you? Am I? I know we can do better! Get out there and move, be His hands and His feet!

But I trust in your unfailing love. I will rejoice because you have rescued me. ~ Psalm 13:5, NLT

The importance of community

2009-08-29T19:55:00.000-07:00

I was reminded of this today and thought I'd post about it.

God made us for community. Not just for ourselves or our families. We need to reach out and join a local church, a bible based church, and let others impact our lives and vice versa.

We need to rely on one another, to be accountable to each other, to love one another, to hold each other up when we don't have the strength to hold ourselves up and to be His hands and feet when we see others who need His words, love, strength and wisdom. A simple smile, hug, letter, meal or probably 100 other things, can bring someone back from the edge, ledge or end of themselves. Sometimes we never learn of how our lives impact others, but we know they do, as we know our lives have been greatly impacted by others.

"And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near." ~ Hebrews 10:25, NLT

Today... a day in the life!

2009-06-04T12:40:00.000-07:00

Today is a special day for a handful of reasons...

Today is my 8 year work anniversary... not a lifetime, but meeting my previous record
Today is also my DSs last day of high school
Today is also my DDs last day of freshman year
Today is also DSs GFs birthday
Today is a great day to celebrate being alive AND
Today is a great day to donate to Operation Quiet Comfort.

As you know, OQC holds a special place in my heart, because they are a grassroots non-profit, who lets each person help in whatever creative way they can, they don't just ask for monetary donations... but now they are faced with the harsh reality of the current economic times and might virtually close without monetary donations.

You can contribute without spending a dime, here's how:
Login to www.GoodSearch.com
Enter Operation Quiet Comfort in the charity box and press verify
Then proceed to search for whatever stuff you usually search for in the course of a day in your life
Each search generates income for OQC

IF you have the ability to donate any funds to OQC - you can click on the OQC button on either of my blogs or go directly to http://www.OperationQuietComfort.org and click on donate, either thru google or paypal (but there is a fee that paypal charges).

Thanks in advance for your loving support of me and OQC.

Forever!

2009-05-27T14:41:00.000-07:00

We know how the story ends, we've read the book. We will live with God forever. This world will fade away and we'll live on. Make the choice! Choose God!

And this world is fading away...But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever. ~ 1 John 2:17, NLT

Ahhh, retreat!

2009-05-04T21:08:00.000-07:00

What a wonderful maker! Molds us like clay in His hands.

We had a great retreat last weekend. It went too fast! It was rainy but the weather couldn't stop about 250 of us from having a great time.

We were at Silver Spur, a local Christian camp, where we were treated to great food, super company, and a God-loving speaker, Carole Wolaver - boy can she multi-task. Her hands were usually on the clay when she was speaking. She was even throwing pots during the "free time" - what an amazing gift she has. I can barely chew gum and walk at the same time. LOL

There were so many things to do: lectures, card crafting, movies, raffle for some great baskets. Our group of 16 won 5 baskets. Amazing! The food was excellent, the site was lovely even thru the gray haze, the company was interesting and hilarious at times. The art was fantastic - I've never appreciate pottery as much before, probably because I took it for granted as my grandparents used to have a kiln and we would do pottery when we visited them.

I'm already looking forward to next year and plan to visit the church that invited me to attend, last year and again this year, on Mothers Day. I'd like them to meet the family behind the pinched and unbalanced retreat-goer.

I'm still tired and sore, but it was well worth the time. I am feeling more balanced and less pinched. I'm sore because I chose to walk up the hill 3 times, which is a lot more exercise than I usually get in a month :) My calves are just hating me!!!

"I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made." ~ Psalms 139:14

The Silent Sermon

2009-04-14T20:21:00.000-07:00

I got this in email today, from my father... I thought it was quite good, so enjoy!

A member of a certain church, who previously had been attending services regularly, stopped going. After a few weeks, the preacher decided to visit him.

It was a chilly evening. The preacher found the man at home alone, sitting before a blazing fire.. Guessing the reason for his preachers visit, the man welcomed him, led him to a comfortable chair near the fireplace and waited.

The preacher made himself at home but said nothing. In the grave silence, he contemplated the dance of the flames around the burning logs. After some minutes, the preacher took the fire tongs, carefully picked up a brightly burning ember and placed it to one side of the hearth all alone then he sat back in his chair, still silent.

The host watched all this in quiet contemplation. As the one lone ember's flame flickered and diminished, there was a momentary glow and then its fire was no more.. Soon it was cold and dead.

Not a word had been spoken since the initial greeting. The preacher glanced at his watch and realized it was time to leave. He slowly stood up, picked up the cold, dead ember and placed it back in the middle of the fire. Immediately it began to glow,once more with the light and warmth of the burning coals around it.

As the preacher reached the door to leave, his host said with a tear running down hi s cheek, 'Thank you so much for your visit and especially for the fiery sermon. I shall be back in church next Sunday.'

We live in a world today, which tries to say too much with too little. Consequently, few listen. Sometimes the best sermons are the ones left unspoken.

The Lord is my Shepherd ----- that's a Relationship!
I shall not want ----- that's Supply!
He maketh me to lie down in green pastures ----that's Rest!
He leadeth me beside the still waters -----that's Refreshment!
He restoreth my soul ----- that's Healing!
He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness --that's Guidance !
For His name sake ----- that's Purpose!
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death--that's Testing!
I will fear no evil ----- that's Protection!
For Thou art with me ----- that's Faithfulness!
Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me -----that's Discipline!
Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies------that's Hope!
Thou annointest my head with oil ----- that's Consecration!
My cup runneth over ----- that's Abundance!
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life----that's Blessing!
And I will dwell in the house of t he Lord -----that's Security!
Forever ----- that's Eternity!

Face it, God is crazy about you!

Send this to the people you are crazy about.I thought this was pretty special, just like YOU! What is most valuable is not what we have in our lives, but WHO we have in our lives.

Jesus said to the people, “I am the light of the world. If you follow me, you won’t be stumbling through the darkness, because you will have the light that leads to life.”~ John 8:12, NLT

Happy Easter

2009-04-12T07:57:00.001-07:00

Thank you Jesus for your sacrifice that all may live eternally with You and the Father. May your church continue to increase daily, in faith an
d in numbers until that day you return again to claim your people. Maranatha!

He isn’t here! He has been raised from the dead, just as He said would happen. Come, see where His body was lying. ~ Matthew 28:6, NLT

Being Joyful

2009-03-02T19:27:00.000-08:00

Choose joy! Sounds easy doesn't it? Well sometimes it is and sometimes it isn't, but it is a choice and with God we can lead our minds with our hearts.

Three car accidents in four months? Choose joy! Two flat tires in one week? Choose joy! Coworker that drives you nuts, finally no longer working with you, leaving you all the work to do? Choose joy!

After a tough morning, even before I left the house today... I saw a beautiful rainbow and chose joy! Did you choose joy today?!

"Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus." ~ 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18, NLT

His hands are holding me

2009-02-18T21:23:00.000-08:00

Things were going fairly well lately, then I hit a snag or two. Unfulfilled expectations mostly and the evil one messing with my sense of personal value to the world. It started, well I noticed it on Valentines Day, when any expectation of appreciation was dashed, leaving me to cry myself to sleep.

Comments and lack-there-of continued for the weekend, stretching into Tuesday, my weekly mandatory unpaid day off... which brought me to a commute this morning in full breakdown mode. I was almost to work, thinking I'd maybe park around the corner and finish my cry so I could enter my workplace with a semblance of dignity, when this song came on. I love it, but don't think I really heard the words until today.

By Your Side ~ Tenth Avenue North

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

As I said, I was crushed by the lack of love I felt from my earthly husband, when in the greater scheme of things, what does that matter? I have the Lords everlasting love showering me 24/7/365. I was able to enter work with my head held high knowing that I am loved, valued, and important - even if no early being ever tells me or shows me that again. Even at work, I'm not 20% less valuable... I am chosen, I am loved and I am saved. What more could we all ask for?!?!?

"I will answer them before they even call to me. While they are still talking about their needs, I will go ahead and answer their prayers!" ~ Isaiah 65:24, NLT

He is the gate

2009-01-29T20:28:00.000-08:00

And what a lovely, majestic, awesome and loving gate He is. All we have to do is have faith and knock and the gate is open for us. The gift is free, but we have to ask for it and embrace it. Jesus paid the price for all of us. He washed our sins away, clothing us in white - a spotless bride.

'Yes, I am the gate. Those who come in through me will be saved. They will come and go freely and will find good pastures." ~ John 10:9, NLT

I'll call you

2009-01-29T16:09:00.000-08:00

How many times have you said you'd call someone - and just never did? How many times do you have to remind yourself to call so-and-so? How many times have you sat on hold for too long? How many cell phone calls do you ignore?

I answer the phone at work, because I have to... and I really don't enjoy talking on the phone, particularly my cell phone ever!

But when we call on the Lord, He answers, with a quick reply as He promises in His Word. How wonderful is that!?!? If that doesn't make your day, not sure what will :)

"Then when you call, the Lord will answer. ‘Yes, I am here,’ He will quickly reply."
~ Isaiah 58:9, NLT

Ripples to eternity

2009-01-02T11:02:00.000-08:00

Just like pebbles thrown in our calm waters, they ripple to eternity. Our large problems today, soon fade and make sense when we look back later.

Looking forward to a new year in 2009. New challenges, new triumphs, new friends and many blessings.

"For our present troubles are small and won’t last very long. Yet they produce for us a glory that vastly outweighs them and will last forever!" 2 Corinthians 4:17 NLT

Can you touch Him?

2008-12-18T15:33:00.000-08:00

Can you touch Him? Just how close are you to the Lord... can you reach out and touch Him? Is he close enough?

If you reached for your own heart, where the Holy Spirit lives - good for you! If you didn't, where do you think He is?

The answers to our problems, concerns, worries are just a prayer away. Your prayers will be heard and answered. You might not like the answer initially, but He is working in all our lives to bring His vision to fruition.

He is all, He knows all, and He made all. It is enough!

Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life. ~ Proverbs 4:23, NLT

Thirsty?

2008-12-09T11:35:00.000-08:00

Pouring my heart out, getting filled again, rinse and repeat :)

I'm still feeling that I'm in a holding pattern, which really IS ok. I prefer this to the turmult my life has been for a good long while, maybe thats it... I'm just not used to everything being OK. It seems a good place to be for this winter season. It was 32 degrees this morning!!!

Maybe this is what resting in the Lord means... just taking each day, and seeing how it plays out. Again, just not somewhere I'm used to being... it feels like the calm between storms, and that might be true also.

I'm listening to a book about exuberance, thinking about what things bring me joy and I really do feel blessed and joyful a lot - believe it or not.

Just another wacky chapter in my crazy life!

O my people, trust in him at all times. Pour out your heart to him, for God is our refuge. ~ Psalm 62:8, NLT

Calm in the storm

2008-12-08T14:11:00.000-08:00

WOW, what a storm lately... nothing huge, just life happening, getting in the way of feeling any accomplishment in any area of my life. Whoosh and time and opportunity are just gone!

Christmas is just around the corner, and while some things are set, ready or planned, so many things aren't... including my heart.

While I'm Waiting -

I'm waiting I'm waiting on You, Lord And I am hopeful I'm waiting on You, Lord Though it is painful But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident Taking every step in obedience While I'm waiting I will serve You While I'm waiting I will worship While I'm waiting I will not faint I'll be running the race Even while I wait

I'm waiting I'm waiting on You, Lord And I am peaceful I'm waiting on You, Lord Though it's not easy But faithfully, I will wait Yes, I will wait

I will serve You while I'm waiting I will worship while I'm waiting I will serve You while I'm waiting I will worship while I'm waiting I will serve You while I'm waiting I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

Be still, and know that I am God! ~ Psalm 46:10, NLT

More than just rings

2008-11-18T09:49:00.000-08:00

Passages from The Love Dare
Receive this as a warning. This forty day journey cannot be taken lightly.

It is a challening and often difficult process, but an incredibly fulfilling one. To take this dare requires a resolute mind and a steadfast determination.

It is not meant to be sampled or briefly tested, and those who quit early will forfeit the greatest benefits. If you will commit to a day at a time for forty days, the results could change your life and your marriage.

Consider it a dare, from others who have done it before you.

God designed and created marriage as a good thing. It is a beautiful, priceless gift. He uses marriage to help us eliminate loneliness, multiply our effectiveness, establish families, raise children, enjoy life and bless us with relational intimacy. But beyond this, marriage also shows us our need to grow and deal with our own issues and self-centeredness through the help of a lifelong partner. If we are teachable, we will learn to do the one thing that is most important to marriage - to love. This powerful union provides the path for you to learn how to love another imperfect person unconditionally. It is wonderful. It is difficult. It is life changing.

If you accept this dare, you must take the view that instead of following your heart, you are choosing to lead it. THe world says follow your heart, but if you are not leading it, then someone or something else is.

We dare you to think differently - choosing instead to lead your heard toward that which is best in the long run. This is a key to lasting, fulfilling relationships.

"By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence." ~ 2 Peter 1:3, NLT

A dream fulfilled?

2008-11-17T12:52:00.000-08:00

I'm waiting and working to see a dream fulfilled. It's a painful and inward journey that I've begun. I have a plan and somedays it works better than others.

My deferred hope is making my heart sick, has made my heart sick, and I fight everyday to heal my sick heart. My heart is more than broken, and I don't know that it will ever be healed. My faith wanes from day to day, but deep down I do know that I am chosen, loved and important to Him, even if to no one else.

I am re-learning, or maybe I never knew how... to love. Love is so many things, and isn't so many others. Love is patient and kind, but many times I am not patient or kind... so much to learn!

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a dream fulfilled is a tree of life." ~ Proverbs 13:12, NLT

How does He see us?

2008-11-05T09:37:00.000-08:00

Yes, godseyes! How does God see us? How does He view the election results? How pleased or displeased is He with our acts of "free will" that we exercised yesterday? How does it all look to Him?

But the Lord said to Samuel, "Don't judge by his appearance or height, for I have rejected him. The Lord doesn't see things the way you see them. People judge by outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart." ~ 1 Samuel 16:7, NLT

Election Day Stress

2008-11-04T14:46:00.000-08:00

Oh my... What a stressful day... and we might not, should not, probably won't really even KNOW anything today! I pray for not only the right people, in God's eyes, to be elected but for a "clean" election. That the people may accept the voting as tallied and it doesn't turn into a big ugly scene.

I've heard stories today about the uglyness of "Christians" claiming to be speaking God's truth in a very unholy manner, putting a bad taint to the rest of us. Sinners we all are. We all get passionate and can sometimes cross that "line" of decency that should be something that we don't do.

Issues that seem so clear in the theoretical can be so hard to figure out in the real here and now. How do we preserve God's word and yet allow people to love one another. Just one of the hard questions, on many ballots today.

The thief's purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life. ~ John 10:10, NLT

Patience Pays Off

2008-10-29T13:07:00.000-07:00

I don't know about you, but I wasn't patient enough to stand in line to get all the patience this life requires, but, I am striving for more everyday, and sometimes I can see the fruits of my hard-earned patience.

Take today for instance... DH actually did what I recommended! A small feat or a large one, you decide :) Maybe there is hope for our marriage and our future. I can take it one small step at a time, at least most days ;) [see, told you I wasn't very patient!]

I'm reading "My Husband, My Maker" by Sharon Ries maybe its all sinking in??? who knows?!?! but I am thankful!

633219753 and so on :)

2008-10-27T10:30:00.000-07:00

Prayer from email (I'm not forwarding, but left the forwarding instructions - God is far more powerful than any forward, instructions followed or not). Enjoy!

You never know when God is going to bless you!! Good things happen when you least expect them to!

Change the number in the subject box when you forward it by adding one!!!

Dear Lord,

I thank You for this day, I thank You for my being able to see and to hear this morning.

I'm blessed because You are a forgiving God and an understanding God.

You have done so much for me and You keep on blessing me.

Forgive me this day for everything I have done, said or thought that was not pleasing to you.I ask now for Your forgiveness.

Please keep me safe from all danger and harm.

Help me to start this day with a new attitude and plenty of gratitude.

Let me make the best of each and every day to clear my mind so that I can hear from You.

Please broaden my mind that I can accept all things.

Let me not whine and whimper over things I have no control over. And give me the best response when I'm pushed beyond my limits.

I know that when I can't pray, You listen to my heart..

Continue to use me to do Your will.

Continue to bless me that I may be a blessing to others.

Keep me strong that I may help the weak...

Keep me uplifted that I may have words of encouragement for others.

I pray for those that are lost and can't find their way.

I pray for those that are misjudged and misunderstood.

I pray for those who don't know You intimately.

I pray for those that will delete this without sharing it with others

I pray for those that don't believe.

But I thank You that I believe that God changes people and God changes things.

I pray for all my sisters and brothers. For each and every family member in their households. I pray for peace, love and joy in their homes; that they are out of debt and all their needs are met.

I pray that every eye that reads this knows there is no problem, circumstance, or situation greater than God.

Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight.

I pray that these words be received into the hearts of every eye that sees it in Jesus' name.

Amen!

If you prayed this prayer, change the number in the subject box before forwarding the message so people can see how many other people have done so. God Bless!

Just repeat this phrase and see how God moves!!
God I love you and I need you, come into my heart, please.

"Fear of man will prove to be a snare, but whoever trusts in the LORD is kept safe." ~Proverbs 29:25

Automobile Adversity

2008-10-23T20:41:00.000-07:00

Grrr, if it isn't one thing, its another. Aug 27th I was rear-ended, which caused my car to be "totalled" and it also caused whiplash. Today, hubby's car was STOLEN, in broad daylight in a public parking lot in San Francisco. Hmph.

Just like my accident, there isn't much that can be done about a random theft, but good golly, it is SO frustrating. I'm so glad that I am storing treasures up in Heaven instead of here in this temporary world. All these things are just things, tools to help us get things done here, ways to get to work, and whatever else.

There is no promise of no storms in life, but instead a calm voice in the storm, a strong hand to hold, a Father who listens and gives us strength.

"... Does it mean he no longer loves us if we have trouble or calamity, or are persecuted, or hungry, or destitute, or in danger, or threatened with death? ... And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God's love."~ Romans 8:35, 38, NLT

Scars are like tattoos but with better stories

2008-10-22T15:56:00.000-07:00

I was thinking about our scars, the visible, the invisible and the never shown ones on the inside. They remind us of our pain, the road map of our lives. The reason we are where we are today.

Where would we be without this one or that one? Only God knows. He made us, He chose us, He loves us and He seeks us. You and me!

He knows the scars of His Son. The most amazing scars, the scars that were suffered to save us all. A precious gift wrapped in such pain, how can we even imagine. The gift He gave so that we can all choose eternal life.

What do we have to lose? Well, everything! So make that choice today! If you aren't sure, think of it this way... if you choose Jesus, and you're wrong, you haven't lost a thing. You've gained a life well-lived with morals and forgiveness. If you choose Jesus and you're right, imagine what you've gained! What a precious gift!

"But if we are living in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin." ~ 1 John 1:7, NLT

Return to Sender - address KNOWN

2008-10-16T12:41:00.000-07:00

I woke up today with Elvis' Return to Sender on my mind. Odd huh? Well not for me, but here is the message I got from the thoughts running thru my heart and mind this morning.

We will be returned to our sender, when we leave this temporary world we live in. We will go to an address known by our maker and brought to fruition from our choices here in this life. Whether that be Heaven or Hell.

We have a choice to accept the gift that has been freely given to us by the blood of Jesus. We have the opportunity to be cleansed of our sins. We have a loving Father who welcomes us to his throne anytime of day or night. We have a friend in Him!

Do you know your ultimate forwarding address? I do and I can't wait to see it ALL, from the pearly gates to the friends and relatives there already.

"For God loved the world so much that he gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life." ~ John 3:16, NLT

You Have Our Attention, Lord

2008-10-13T08:39:00.001-07:00

Thought I'd share this on my blog. Thanks Max!

You Have Our Attention, Lord
A prayer by Max Lucado - October 2008

Our friends lost their house
The co-worker lost her job
The couple next door lost their retirement
It seems that everyone is losing their footing

This scares us. This bailout with billions.
These rumblings of depression.
These headlines: ominous, thunderous -
“Going Broke!” “Going Down!” “Going Under!” “What's Next?”

What is next?

We’re listening. And we’re admitting: You were right.

You told us this would happen.
You shot straight about loving stuff and worshipping money.
Greed will break your heart, You warned.
Money will love you and leave you.
Don’t put your hope in riches that are so uncertain.

You were right. Money is a fickle lover and we just got dumped.

We were wrong to spend what we didn’t have.
Wrong to neglect prayer and ignore the poor.
Wrong to think we ever earned a dime. We didn’t. You gave it. And now, tell us Father, are You taking it?

We’re listening. And we’re praying.
Could you make something good out of this mess?

Of course You can. You always have.
You led slaves out of slavery,
Built temples out of ruins,
Turned stormy waves into a glassy pond and water into sweet wine.
This disorder awaits your order. So do we.

Through Christ,
Amen

God will always give what is right to His people who cry to Him night and day, and He will not be slow to answer them. (Luke 18:7 NCV)

Everything we need!

2008-10-08T09:23:00.000-07:00

Do you have everything you need? Do you feel like you have everything you need? Wow, what questions!!!

In these tough economic times, and we have yet to see the worst of it, I don't often feel like I have everything I need, or maybe its that the world has gotten to me, and confused my needs with my wants.

So what do we need? To know that I am loved, friends, a warm place to lay my head, food, and a way to earn income to pay for all of that. That's about it. So I really do have what I need... boy, the want list sure is longer... and longer the more we have, the more we want.

So where do you stand? Do you have all you need? Is it enough? How would you know?

"By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life. We have received all of this by coming to know him, the one who called us to himself by means of his marvelous glory and excellence." ~ 2 Peter 1:3, NLT

Sleeping in Peace

2008-10-07T13:08:00.000-07:00

Good sleep is so important for all of us. I relearned that just the other night when I could NOT sleep! The reasons that evening seemed endless: post-party and pre-work adrenaline, the noisy house due to two boys staying up all night on the wii & xbox, and hubby getting up at 3:50am to get to work by 5am.

I haven't yet caught up on that lost sleep and maybe we just can't really do that in or human bodies and minds. Why is it so hard to turn off the world, know that we are safe and sleep well? I need to learn to calm myself, my inner self as well... and trust that I am allowed to relax and sleep, without the need for sleep meds or other means.

He has given us a means of refreshing and we just need to take it. Allow me to rely on you Lord and know that you alone will guide my steps. Remind me of these things during these ordinary hard times... remind me to pray, trust, love and encourage more than I criticize, whine and count on my own strength in these daily things.

"In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe." ~ Psalm 4:8, NLT

Fall is falling

2008-10-03T14:21:00.000-07:00

I can't believe its already October! The 3rd even! Where has the year gone?!?!

My baby turns 18 on Sunday! 18 years have just FLOWN by!

I'm not ready! I'm not worthy! I'm not prepared! but... each day I get more ready, more worthy and more prepared with God's help. I am His daughter and I am a work in progress. Aren't you?

Can you tell I'm feeling hopeful even while I am trying to cope with realities of this world... times have been tough, but there have been some very bright moments lately, and I'm realizing I can rise to these challenges and come out stronger. Amen!

"Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes." ~ Ephesians 1:4, NLT

Hallelulah!

2008-09-24T14:41:00.000-07:00

Wahoo! Hubby just got a job! Our timing is not His. He starts tomorrow and might be off to Vegas for training as soon as next week! Thank you Lord!

I have been praying for the right job. This job is many cities away, but at least in an area he knows - both geographically and mechanically. He is very excited! I can't wait to hear more about it.

How precious is your unfailing love, O God! All humanity finds shelter in the shadow of your wings. ~ Psalm 36:7, NLT

Living in the Light

2008-09-24T11:04:00.000-07:00

Living in the light of friendship sure is easier than living in the darkness without friends. Praise the Lord for giving us such an example by His life on this earth in the body of Jesus.

I need my friends, no matter how much or little I see them, whether they be virtual or 3D in my life. I rely on them to help prop me up on blue days and in return I do the same for them.

I learn so much from my friends, they encourage me to expand and grow in every way possible. We share ideas, projects, inspiration, and so much more, I can't even put into words.

I look forward to their questions, their struggles, their hardships, as they help me realize I'm not on this planet alone... but we are all intertwined in so many complex ways.

Thanks friends for just being there for me, and I hope I can be there for you in more ways than you can ever dream!

"But if we are living in the light, as God is in the light, then we have fellowship with each other, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, cleanses us from all sin." ~ 1 John 1:7, NLT

Perception vs. Reality

2008-09-18T09:12:00.000-07:00

How is your perception today? How is your reality? Do they differ? Why? How does that serve you?

We have a choice, we can just grunt thru our chores or we can be blessed by them. I realized this as I was cleaning out the fridge last night. Hubby and I were supposed to do it together, but he conveniently disappeared when the fridge door was opened. So I started to get pissy, figured OK, I'll clean out the UFOs and he can clean all the related moldy dishes... FINE, be that way!

Then he reappeared and started doing other kitchen works that needed to be done as well... so I pressed on with the cleaning and then did all the dishes, praying the whole time for wisdom and the ability to continue to bite my tongue! Shortly, very shortly actually, I was done... VIOLA! done... a big job and it was done in the blink of an eye, without any yelling or starting a big fight! Praise the Lord for clean dishes, and I guess dirty ones too :)

So next time you face a chore that you despise or have issues with, just buck up and get 'er done... you'll be a better person for having taken it on.

"So let's not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don't give up." ~ Galatians 6:9, NLT

Operation: Worship

2008-09-06T21:47:00.000-07:00

Dear Hero,

Thank you for your service to our country. You and your fellow soldiers are in our thoughts and prayers daily. We are free because of citizens like you that choose to put yourselves in harms way to defend our rights and freedoms.

We pray for peace also and want you all to come home soon. We support you and will welcome you home with open arms and hold you in high esteem for the work you’ve done for all of us.

On September 11th we will mourn those lost and celebrate our freedom during a Freedom Walk in Antioch, CA - as well as many other locations in the country, as coordinated by America Supports You. There are so many troop support organizations, the country has really realized that your efforts need to be recognized and acknowledged.

We are the majority, but the minority voice is very loud, please try not to listen to them, know that there are many quiet supporters of the troops, even if we don’t all support the war.
All things are done for the greater good, even if we don’t understand that as we make our choices, work our jobs, and live our lives. There are no accidents. God is in control.

Remember we love you and anxiously await your return home.

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. ~Matthew 6:33

Sufficient

2008-09-03T18:24:00.000-07:00

Thought you might enjoy the lyrics, even if you don't know the tune. I just melt whenever I hear this song. Thanks Megan :) you sing it so well.

Sufficient

Hear my heart lord as I cry out to you

Hear my prayer lord and carry me thru

In your mercy in the promise you made

Be my strength Lord when my strength fades away
‘Cause when I am weak your strength is complete

It's perfect Completely all I need

Sufficient for me

Your grace and peace are perfect

Completely all I need

You're all that I need

In my weakness I'm finding your strength

In my sorrow a gentle embrace

Through the seasons of laughter or pain

You are listening When I call out your name

‘Cause when I am weak your strength is complete

It's perfect Completely all I need

Sufficient for me Your grace and peace are perfect

Completely all I need

You're all that I need

I'll find you when I seek

I'll look for you with all of my heart

And I’ll find you when I'm weak

‘cause you are strong

Hear my heart lord as I cry out to you

Hear my prayer lord and carry my through

Carry me through

‘Cause when I am weak your strength is complete

It's perfect Completely all I need

Sufficient for me

Your grace and peace are perfect

Completely all I need

You're all that I need

‘Cause when I am weak your strength is complete

It's perfect Completely all I need

Sufficient for me Your grace and peace are perfect

Completely all I need

You're all that I need

"By his divine power, God has given us everything we need for living a godly life..." ~ 2 Peter 1:3, NLT

Ahhh... I need a vacation!

2008-09-03T08:31:00.000-07:00

I woke up this morning, one week to the day of my rear-ender accident that totaled my car, and realized that I need a vacation! I want a break from the day to day stresses: the get up, get dressed, go to work, yadda yadda.

But for now, it just isn't in the cards - sure I can take a day off work and try to disappear for a day and it would help my mental health - but I don't even feel like making that effort to possibly feel better :(

I think I need a break from the mundane, but I'm not sure that exists! Or maybe its the chaos that I need a break from. Our lives have been just crazy lately... one thing after another - just piling up the stress on my head and my whiplashed neck and back :( so maybe thats why it seems to hurt worse now. That's it!

I know it will help me, and hubby, when he is able to find a job. Being unemployed really sucks the life out of you and your family, as well as the obvious fiscal implications :(

OK, enough of this wanna-be-on-vacation pity party... I need to get back to a peaceful place in my heart and trust in the Lord to keep me safe. Hey, and you too!

"In peace I will lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, will keep me safe." ~ Psalm 4:8, NLT

Ch-Ch-Changes!

2008-08-31T17:35:00.000-07:00

Yes, BE the change you want to see in the world. Be the light, be the salt, do something to make the world better. The weak shall move the strong. Really! I have been feeling quite weak lately, yet my words and deeds have effects on others. It really is amazing!

Take an active role in your life. Seize the day! Make a change! Vote for your beliefs. Live like you mean it!

We only get one chance here on earth. Make your life count. Let others count on you. Count it all joy! Don't waste your time feeling sorry for yourself, being angry with others, or wishing you were someone else. You have been fearfully and wonderfully made. The artists fingerprints are on each part of you. You are the clay, you have been molded for just your life. Only each one of us can handle what we're given... anyone elses serving is more than we can take.

Our mercies renew every morning... good thing, as everyday we use all of ours. Praise the Lord for refreshing - come to the water, you who thirst, and you'll thirst no more!!!

"This same Good News that came to you is going out all over the world. It is bearing fruit everywhere by changing lives, just as it changed your lives from the day you first heard and understood the truth about God's wonderful grace." ~ Colossians 1:6, NLT

In the refiners fire

2008-08-28T11:20:00.000-07:00

Testing, testing... so much testing going on. I'm in the refiners fire. I can't wait to see how shiny and new I come out on the other side. But BOY is it HOT in here!

I know I've been thru it before and I will be again, but I am certainly now. I could make a big list to show you, but thats too much work.

I also know that I'm not the only one in the fire at the moment, there are many of you in there with me. Know that this season of refining only makes us better!

Praying for peace and the fires to die down soon, in His perfect time.

"And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart." ~ Ezekiel 36:26, NLT

How do I know my value?

2008-08-12T13:12:00.000-07:00

Do I value myself? My relationships? My blessings? My life? My job?

Not enough sometimes, but boy when something doesn't go right and I'm feeling miserable I sure value how it feels to feel good. Funny and sad! Like now, I have an annoying headache... I know many people live with them, and many other pains... but boy do I miss feeling better, and again, I'm barely not-well... imagine how much healthier I would be, you would be, we all would be... if we could somehow capitalize on this feeling and actually DO something about it.

I've been known to whine about every little thing that doesn't go right for me... instead of putting my whines to work fixing what I have control over and trying to minimize the effect of the things I don't have control over. Sounds like the serenity prayer, doesn't it?!?!

"So don't be afraid; you are more valuable to God than a whole flock of sparrows." ~ Matthew 10:31, NLT

The sun will come out... tomorrow...

2008-07-24T09:04:00.000-07:00

And today is yesterdays tomorrow... yes, I feel much better today, it was just a matter of shaking myself clean of those dark thoughts, writing it down yesterday really helped to give me perspective and clear view of how blessed I am.

Thanks for your comments friends, they really do help me validate that I am not alone on this earth, but just passing thru, on my way to a much better place in the Kingdom of Heaven where I will be reunited with those who have gone before me and will wait for those following me. What a glorious day that will be!

Our mercies renew every morning and PTL for that, as I think I use them up everyday, sometimes before the day is over. Things have stabilized a lot at home, and every little bit really helps, but living with 3 teens, well 4, if you count DH just is hard, no matter how each and every day actually plays out. Add to that my own moods, needs, wants, desires - met or unmet, and you have a terrific recipe for disaster which thankfully doesn't usually occur. I'm trying to count every blessing and relish every calm moment, and remember to stop and smell the roses :)

"No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead." Philippians 3:13 NLT

Gray day

2008-07-23T09:58:00.000-07:00

Ahhh, the humanity of it all. I disappoint myself, others, and vice versa. Today I'm just sorta blue, not gray or terrible, just sorta down. There are so many things I want to do, to provide for my family, to sustain the world... yet, I fall short every time, or at least it feels like that to me today.

It's like a blanket of disappointment that pervades my life, maybe all our lives, the human quality we all share, eventho we all try, at some level to achieve more than humanly possible.

I guess that's just the way this life goes in our human condition. Its so hard sometimes to look beyond yourself and your 'less than' condition... and I know many have worse situations, and I can only imagine what gets them out of bed, out of the bottle, or out of their own misery.

I have my faith and it helps sustain me daily, and I know it bring great peace to many. I am never disappointed in God's mercy, peace and splendor. I need to lift my eyes to the Father and get out of this funk. He made the heavens and the earth, He numbered every hair on my head, He knows me by name... ahh, I feel better already!

"We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure. This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves." ~ 2 Corinthians 4:7, NLT

Appreciation for the vintage

2008-07-14T15:24:00.000-07:00

... and no I'm not talking about me :) LOL I got these two terrific old heavy metal "vintage" sewing machines. They aren't just old, but they're ancient :) at least as far as modern machines are concerned.

The one pictured here is vintage 1953, which yes, is older than me :) It has interchangeable cams that change the stitch pattern. The color is fantastic in a love the avocado way, the case is extremely neat, and I hope the beast will even sew.

I also got a not-quite-so-vintage Morse. Boy, that thing is smooth. It has a certain ring to it when I sew... ahh, like the sweet smell of a fantastic memory! Pardon me while I swoon :)

Anyway, off to sew, well later, after I get this thing called work done... more later, maybe :)

"After Noah was 500 years old, he became the father of Shem, Ham and Japheth" Genesis 5:32

God Bless America

2008-07-07T07:19:00.000-07:00

Yes, God bless America - and the rest of the world too :) God created it all and has ultimate authority over all of it and all of us.

Big holiday weekend for the USA this weekend, patriotism at its best. Attended two local city festivals with fireworks and lots of good cheer. I'm sure there was an unruly person or two, but overall people were quite genuine, nice and got along.

I got a little uncomfortable for the cause I'm working with, but I knew I'd survive :) I totally get why public speaking is fear #1 for most of us.

"So Christ has really set us free. Now make sure that you stay free, and don't get tied up again in slavery to the law." ~ Galatians 5:1, NLT

Painful Christianity

2008-06-24T08:56:00.000-07:00

Being a Christian can sure sometimes be painful. It's hard to even dream of being close to the perfection of Christ. Making mistakes, letting our flesh control us, seeing the pain in peoples lives, experiencing pain in our own lives, making the same mistakes over and over again. What a learning process this life is.

How do we become better? With Christ, of course :) He died for us, for our sins, for our ever-lasting life. Our mistakes have been pre-paid by his life and death on the cross. I can't even fathom that sometimes. Our pain is nothing in comparison to Him taking on all our sin.

Thank you for that Jesus. Thank you for taking my sin. Thank you for dying for me. Thank you for loving me that much. Help me to live a cleaner life, in ways only you know. Help me be a better example of Christian beliefs and practices. Help others around me see that I am trying. Help others who I've hurt see that I do care and even if misguided in my actions, that I do not ever intend to hurt anyone.

"We are made right with God by placing our faith in Jesus Christ. And this is true for everyone who believes, no matter who we are." Romans 3:22, NLT

What? Is this a bakery?

2008-06-17T11:58:00.000-07:00

Yup... you guessed it... rolls and rolls and rolls... HELP! I have too many rolls... I know... I sit all day, then go home and sit all night... and I love love love to eat!!!

I really MUST do something about this... I did make a good step in the right direction today... I brought lunch, so DH doesn't have to bring me fast food... but... I know I need to move my body... but I just can't seem to get motivated.

BUT... a horrific picture my DD took of me on Saturday, that reminds me of the above, is helping motivate me a bit!!! Why is the flesh so weak??? Lord, give me strength, motivation and energy to move my body!!!

"Keep watch and pray, so that you will not give in to temptation. For the spirit is willing, but the body is weak." ~ Mark 14:38, NLT

Connections!

2008-06-10T15:02:00.000-07:00

Connections... we all need them, some more than others. I need many and always. I can tend to feel alone on my own private island. I have so many connections, I don't even know if I can make a list of them :) and yet, sometimes I still feel alone.

So it isn't only about the number of connections we have maybe, but the depth, frequency or importance maybe?!?! We ARE complicated creatures - just as our Amazing God made us ALL in His image!

"God works in different ways, but it is the same God who does the work in all of us." 1 Corinthians 12:6, NLT

Swish swish...

2008-06-09T15:06:00.000-07:00

Yup... my hair is long enough for a pony tail. It hasn't been this long in about 17 years! Why? Cuz I don't like it long and DH doesn't either... but I'm humoring DD and so far so good. And I'm getting compliments from others too... but ISH... what a bother, especially in the summer!!!

So any bets how much longer it will get before I go ballistic and cut it all off??? or at least get a major trim??? I have no specific dates of anything coming up that I want long or short hair for... so... hmm...

"For if a wife will not cover her head, then she should cut her hair short. But since it is disgraceful for a wife to cut off her hair or shave her head, let her cover her head." 1 Corin 11:6 ESV

'til they all come home

2008-06-04T08:49:00.000-07:00

So what can one person achieve? A whole lot! Case in point: me! For a while, I had been wanting, in my free time, to find a way to support the troops, but feeling alone in this world, it just hadn't happened.

Recently, when a parent support group I was part of, just sorta fell apart in front of me, I realized that I just might not quite need that group, and might need something for me, to help me connect with others and do good works, maybe not even in my own home. And that once all that happened, I would be a more fulfilled, happy, and energetic person, in the rest of my life.

So by God-incidence, I was drawn to two organizations, Operation Quiet Comfort (www.OperationQuietComfort.org) and Antioch Military Families & Friends (www.AntiochMilitary.com) and jumped right in. I am so involved its almost scary! Things are going really well... this answer to my prayers, has become others answer to their prayers - a real win-win situation! We, together, are getting things done, where things just weren't before, we're breaking new ground together and bringing about change and giving many others the opportunity to help. I am SO excited about all of this, its even hard to sleep. (so much for my idea of being more energized)

I encourage each of you to find something you can be passionate about and dare to dream! I did, and I'm thrilled about it all! Wishing you all peace 'til the troops come home!

"For the Lord God is our sun and our shield. He gives us grace and glory. The Lord will withhold no good thing from those who do what is right." ~ Psalm 84:11, NLT

Seven years!

2008-06-04T08:32:00.000-07:00

Yup, no 7-year itch for me... well sorta :) I've been at my same job now, 7 years! TODAY! It isn't my record, but coming close... Four years, we were in one location, very close to home and I took that for granted.

Then the plant moved, only about 10 miles away... but that 10 miles is in the wrong direction commute-wise, so my short 10 minute commute turned into 45 minutes on a good day. Then I up and moved a mile or two in the opposite direction, making my commute even longer! :) After work moved, it took this old body *months* to adjust... :( but now it is more like a bad habit, I'm just stuck with it.

Lately however, hubby and I have been commuting together, as he has a company car and the gas is paid for, since gas is over $4/gallon here and probably won't be going down anytime soon... joyful! So I sleep, talk, surf the net on his laptop or just space out, while he drives, negotiates the route, deals with all the idiots on the road, etc. Ahh, how nice it is! And then, since I'm stuck at work, he brings me lunch - sweeeeetttttt!

So happy work anniversary to me... that will be the highlight of the celebrations, this company, these people, etc. do almost nothing for anything - but its a good thing while it lasts! Thank you Lord for everyday in every way!

"Jotham grew powerful because he walked steadfastly before the LORD his God." 2 Chronicles 27:6

The Man Cave

2008-06-01T15:53:00.000-07:00

Egads hubby was in his "man cave" today ... you know, one of "those days" where he is in a mood to end all moods. I couldn't get far enough way from him. Wish I could just grab his club and bop him over the head with it.

This too shall pass! Heaven help me.

"David stayed in the desert strongholds and in the hills of the Desert of Ziph. Day after day Saul searched for him, but God did not give David into his hands. " 1 Sam 23:14

How old?

2008-05-27T10:45:00.000-07:00

Thank you Lord for the power to raise these children you've blessed me with. Today is my DDs 14th birthday and I'm amazed how fast those 14 years have gone. Everyday brings a new adventure, a new challenge, a new accomplishment and a new laugh.3

DD you are a joy when you're creative, gorgeous and lovely. I remember the awkward days of teenville and I don't wish to ever go back there. There will be hard days, but hopefully the good will outweigh the bad and you can always have a smile on your heart.

Love you smoochiedoodles!!!

He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. ~ Isaiah 40:29, NLT

HA! Waxing Star Wars

2008-05-23T11:15:00.000-07:00

Oh my! This picture just cracks me up... but isn't that basically what we do? Wax, shave, pluck here there and everywhere, but not really everywhere!?!? LOL

Swimsuit season, gotta love it... NOT! But really... why do we all care so much? In the bigger picture, does a little hair here or there... matter much at all?!?!?

I know I care less and less everyday! but maybe thats just the old married me speaking...

Whatever! Happy Friday everyone!

God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through him. ~ John 3:17, NLT

How young

2008-05-20T10:01:00.000-07:00

I think I am prone to foolishness and fads, and I don't consider myself young :) Yes, younger than some and older than some, and maybe young at heart or not... but not young, but perhaps in comparison to the Lord, we are all young, but a vapor, but a speck on the timeline of time and life itself.

I've done some dumb things... and I continue to do them. And not just me, but others around me, friends, family, coworkers, people I don't know... not to mention all the strangers on the street that drive like they're on an oval track somewhere, without traffic lights, pedestrians or cars turning this way and that.

So when will we all grow up? Maybe never... dunno, but I'm trying. I think others are too. Thanks to all my friends who are helping me along the way!

"Young people are prone to foolishness and fads; the cure comes through tough-minded discipline." Proverbs 22:15 The Message

How do you spell relief?

2008-05-18T22:14:00.000-07:00

Yesterday and today, I spelled it P-O-O-L! Ahhh... finally I'm loving having a pool. The landlord, the pool guy and I are still working on it, but it will be sparkling soon. When it is over 100 degrees, I don't much care that it isn't :)

After spending nearly 6 hours in the 100+ temps outside yesterday, I was so ready for the refreshing and I got it... I didn't even want to get out. Today either, actually!

Enjoy your summer peeps!

"While the earth remains, seed time and harvest, and cold and heat, and summer and winter, and day and night shall not cease." Genesis 8:22

Wisdom from a best girlfriend

2008-05-15T16:13:00.000-07:00

Got this message today from my girlfriend about the fact that she's taking some time off for the summer to be with her kids. "Thanks! It is really nervy and I've been really scared for a while. I just prayed for God's peace and I seem to be OK with it now. I have to trust God's plan for my/our life. :)"

Funny how you can see the wisdom or foolishness in another persons choices, but sometimes can't see it in your own.

Life is about making choices, in the moment, and dealing with the consequences. And it sure is easier with the guidance of the Lord.

You'll be OK girlfriend. "It's all good," like my other best girlfriend tells me all the time. You've prayed, done your homework, and now you can be at peace in your decision. Enjoy the summer my friend. Life is short!!!

"Don’t worry about anything, instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done." Philippians 4:6 NLT

Selective memories

2008-05-14T11:19:00.001-07:00

I have mommy brain, but so does my mom... so I guess its OK. Sometimes I can barely remember my kids names, let alone when they got their first tooth, walked, or whatever the milestone. I was chatting with my mom today about a pivotal cutting of the apron strings moment that she and I had some 20+ years ago and she says "I don't remember my kids pain" which is probably a good thing! Funny tho that a moment that at the time, was major, is just gone from her mind. We all have moments like that, sometimes a lot of them.

I have a long-time best friend, from high school actually, who swears that I did something that she remembers to clearly as mine, but I have no recollection. Whatever! Can't cry over spilled milk now, right?

Anyway, the quote below reminds me that only my heavenly Father knows all, remembers all, and loves me anyway - what peace that knowledge brings! I don't have to remember the embarrasing high school story, the pain of my children, or whatever else. Ahhh, breathe in and out, live in the moment, and enjoy the amnesia! :)

For I hold you by your right hand— I, the LORD your God. And I say to you, 'Don't be afraid. I am here to help you'. Isaiah 41:13 NLT

Fear of DMV

2008-05-13T08:53:00.000-07:00

No, not really fear of DMV, but fear of the power they have to get new drivers on the road. See my DS has finally started to read the driver training book and the thought of him driving is a really scary one for me. He is DS #2, so theoretically it's easier the second time around, right? Um NO! Not this time around.

See DS #2 is the middle child and has some additional challenges in his personality and brain chemistry. Add that all together and you get some pretty unpredictable, quickly changing and very complicated issues for our whole family. See this for an idea what we live.

"...Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine" Isaiah 43:1 NLT

Computing while you commute

2008-05-13T07:08:00.000-07:00

Yes, a very mobile blog. DH drove me to and from work a while back, because my car wasn't well - now it's just for budget, convenience and a bit of control, AND I can nap, compute on his work laptop or just enjoy the fact that I don't have to jockey the traffic! Ahh, gotta love it. Increasing gas prices help influence my daily decision, get a ride or not? but today it was all about my blog! DS was helping me with it last night, but I figured out more than he did... yeah old brains :)

"And when God had me wander from my father's household, I said to her, 'This is how you can show your love to me: Everywhere we go, say of me, "He is my brother." Gen 20:13

Blog surfing

2008-05-12T12:59:00.000-07:00

HA! Just happened upon this blog. See, same issues, in any language, in any country (this one is from Portugal) ... I found the photos eye-catching and I can almost figure out what the blogger has to say about the photos! Hilarious!

Observe them carefully, for this will show your wisdom and understanding to the nations, who will hear about all these decrees and say, "Surely this great nation is a wise and understanding people." Deu 4:6 NIV

Penny for your thoughts?

2008-05-07T16:02:00.000-07:00

Hey, look at me GO... for a while the searches yielded OQC $0.02 each, now back to $0.01 - but every penny helps.

"You being enriched in everything to all liberality, which works through us thanksgiving to God." 2 Corinthians 9:11 NIV

Rip Rip Rip

2008-05-07T15:42:00.001-07:00

When life hands you lemons, make lemonade, right???

Or in my case, when you buy too much fabric, just rip it up - it IS therapeutic :) I am working on a project, actually about 300 of them... so just wait and see! I will post pictures (hopefully not as huge as this one) NO, not my fabric stash, mine is actually worse!

No great worries here. I am not given more than I can handle, it just feels like it sometimes, so today is nothing special... just more of the same. But it is good to be on this side of the dirt, but I also know I won't be on the other side of the dirt but with my Father in Heaven when the time comes. So don't grieve for me in this life or when I pass to my next.

"Thus the poor have hope, and iniquity shuts its mouth." Job 5:16

Forgiveness

2008-05-06T14:21:00.000-07:00

I was recently hurt, somewhat inadvertently, by a friend. I knew I took it harder than it was ever meant. I wasn't sure if/when I'd be able to forgive, but after attending a womens retreat, I think I am able to forgive this person and move forward without the baggage of the hurt feelings.

He forgave us, when we weren't worthy of any forgiveness. Christ paid the penalty for my sins and I need to learn to forgive others when my feelings are hurt.

"...bearing with one another, and forgiving each other, whoever has a complaint against anyone; just as the Lord forgave you, so also should you." Col 3:13

Voila! I'm here!

2008-05-06T12:13:00.000-07:00

Ooh that was too easy! I'm joining the ranks of the bloggers. Is that a good thing? Well we'll see. I have visions that I'll never get here to post any updates, or maybe I'll just add blogging to my list of addictions :) time will tell.

"And God saw every thing that he had made, and, behold, [it was] very good." Genesis 1:31 (KJV)